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You're the monster from my dreams
You are the backache while I am asleep
You're the toothache that I try my best
To ignore till I fucking scream
You are the slow car in front of me
You are the 40 hours a week
You're the portrait of the artist
Forcing your art to embody me
You're the silhouette of the main boss
Before he takes his final form
You're the forest, fire, water,
Shadow temples combined in one shit-storm
You're the Creepypasta coming to life
In my paranoid young mind
You're my ever conjugating, granulating
Sand Man state of mind
Every promise has been broke, our vows revoked
You gave back my green coat
Gave me all my sweatshirts, every trinket,
Every single dumb love note
If I could go back in time and fix all this
I would smash the time machine
I swear to God this is the last song
I'll ever write about you and me
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2. |
The Bridge
12:24
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I go to the bridge
When I don't have anywhere to go
Staring at the pond
All my hope is gone
I listen to my heart
It brings me back to the bridge
It is where I belong
It's where I wrote this song
Watching over the bridge
Don't you dare step on my bridge
It is mine and mine alone
And where it goes is half unknown
Color coat all my fears
It has been like this for years
The fear of everything but loss
Cause with nothing to lose I am just lost
I go to the bridge
When I refuse to go home
Things are bad, I confess
But I don't wanna make you stressed
Pass me by in your car
I wish on you like a shooting star
Spend all your time at the bar
While I worship from afar
Watching over the bridge
Keep each other safe from it
Lay new boards, secure the truss
But it can’t be done if we don't have trust
I follow up with myself
How was my day, how is my health?
I fear everything but loss
Cause with nothing to lose I am just lost
I can never fall asleep
Without me dying in my dreams
There's water rushing below me
And for a moment I feel free
But then I snap out of my trance
There is pavement underneath my Vans
I'm standing on solid ground
The bridge is closed, I turn around
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You're every compliment I can think of
You're every watercolor brush stroke
You're every beam of light through my window
And when the sun goes down
I have to tell myself
That it's okay to close my eyes
Cause you'll still be here at sunrise
I'd hate to be a prisoner in battle with my own
I'd hate to be invisible to the ones searching at home
I'd hate to be a catalyst for the enemy to score
I'd hate to be a prisoner of war
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4. |
Change Makes Cents
03:38
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I feel my ancestors deep inside my empty bones
I feed off their hatred while justice usurps the throne
I'd call it quits but I can never reach
My human potential if I play it weak
So I'm oh so sorry, but I have to keep
My heart and my soul in tact
Every life is worth a dime
But mine's worth nothing if I wouldn't die
For everyone who would die for mine
So I love you too, but my neighbor is bleeding out
In the world I'm marching with all, in my blood I'm alone
A public cry of love equals casting a stone
Now I never said I didn't love you all
But you're following paths of hypocritical gods
And your temple is nothing more than just a facade
So I don't think you'll find me 'round there
Every life is worth a dime
But mine's worth nothing if I wouldn't die
For everyone who would die for mine
So I love you too, but my neighbor is bleeding out
I'm sorry. I love you
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5. |
Blood
04:10
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I beat the train to the station
No I don't need a vacation
I know I said I did
But I was just a kid
No I don't know him, there is no relation
The younger me could fight
But he couldn't fuck
I used to feel so stuck
But then I tried my luck
And now I can't stop moving my body, like so
I fell in love with myself for the first time
Even though I lied in the first line
The train was way too fast
And now I'm way too crass
And now I don't recognize my own
I fell in love with myself for the first time
Even though I lied in the third line
I am still a kid
My life is up to bid
And now I don't even recognize my own blood
The younger me could love
But he couldn't cry
Why do you always lie?
Why did you say goodbye?
Where did you go when push came to shove?
I tried to change the station
While me and ***** were racing
But all my buttons were broke
And then he fucking choked
Then all alone I heard the sirens blaring, like so
I fell in love with myself for the first time
Even though I lied in the ninth line
***** was way too fast
And now i'm way too crass
And now i don't recognize my own
I fell in love with myself for the first time
Even though I lied in the third line
You never told me lies
You never said goodbye
And now I don't even recognize my own blood
Becoming someone I don't like
I fell in love with the nightlife
I fell in love with myself
And now I need self help
Man, I need something more than verses and melodies and hooks!
I fell in love with myself for the first time
Now I'm getting burnt by the bright lights
This happened way too fast
And now I'm way too crass
And now I don't recognize my own
I fell in love with myself for the first time
But I've told this lie for the last time
I am living in hell
I fucking hate myself
And now I don't even recognize my own
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Hateful Purge
02:59
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Sit and stare
Through dusty air
Chicken crumbs on the coffee table and my chair
The doors are locked
It's 9 o'clock
It takes way too long for me to kick off my socks
Groceries still on the kitchen floor
From the mall, Walmart and dollar store
I haven't played guitar in months
My calluses have softened up
I'm in need
Of better weed
Just a little smoke in my lungs so I can breath
Fall asleep
Rinse repeat
I’m a glutton, loser, punk ass wannabe
Don't lay down till the sun is up
Don't wake up till you've had enough
Mental inbox full of spam
Nothing left of who I am
Pray one day I find my way
Grind my teeth, pick at my face
Deny that I'm out of place
Drink, I chase, I drink, I chase
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7. |
Come Over?
04:50
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I want you so much
I think I could cry
But why does every song I write
Start with "I"?
I think I know why
But I can't face it
Should I blow it off, or
Should I just embrace it?
Tell me why you
Roll your eyes
Every time I turn my
Amp into overdrive
Am I that predictable or
Are you just sick
Of hearing me scream about
All the same old shit?
Come on over!
Won't you come on over?
Color me pink, oh no no
Yeah, "I'm so weak"
That melody overstayed its
Welcome within a week
We used to get all dressed up
For those parades
But now every time I see you
You're wearing gray
Come on over!
Won't you come on over?
This fucking movie
Makes me sick
200 years of
Internal conflict
I look left and right but I cant find
The protagonist
Maybe there's no winner, and
Uncle Sam was destined to eat shit
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8. |
The Fifth Step
02:18
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Sunlight
Makes my cotton candy colored shirt look white
My left shoes is squeaking so I'm leaning right
Everyone around me is having a good time
Mine's alright
But I can't shake the feeling something isn’t right
Felt too good for too long and I'm keeping score
Maybe I can keep this up a little more
Taking cover under the table
Picking up the slack that you're not able
Telling one another they're not stable
Before I up and leave, I cut the cable
The bridge is my only friend
He walks me past every stick and stone
He guides me to the end
I'm free from every blinding window
Deny, get angry
I get depressed
I bargain to see if we can save what's left
I don't think I can do the one that comes next
I don't think I can do the--
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9. |
DJ Subatomic
07:06
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Pick and poke at my troubled mind
You don't condone violence of any kind
I'm hurting inside
Talk about a stomach ache
I don't think I can find the brakes in time
I'm burning alive
Shame is tainted in my brain
Oh, dear God, for heaven sakes, I'm fine
Fuck that life I rid, I don't give a shit
I'm only 20 and I'm already losing it
Where'd the notion
That apathy is cool come from?
I feel like I'm deaf, blind and dumb
I can't be alone
Juvenoia overload
Or am I the one that should put down my phone?
I don't think I
Can go to town on these pigs
Without a proper needle on the tables I rigged
I injected my confidence
I'm straight from the province
Where the musically talented
Are poisoned by salad and the overtones
We don't need choruses
We don't need adjectives
We only need Madlibs
And coordinated bathtub jigs
I'm running the circus
And I'm running the circuit
And you don't deserve this
But I'm trying to work this record playing machine
Sorry doesn't make the things you do and say go away
It don't change the fact that what you did was bad
And it makes me sad and mad
And I've had it up to here with all that
Where will I go
When you're all consumed by overtones?
When everyone I know becomes a clone?
How will I show
You all that I threw that stone?
I'll be damned if I die all alone
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I just don't know
If you told me that (or not)
You tell so many stories
I can't keep track of the days or dates
You're singing to me on the bus ride home
But I just wanna sleep
You're sitting there in your comfy charter bus chair
Blissfully unaware of my hundred yard stare
I'm sorry I don't
Remember that
You told me so long ago
(I must've forgot)
I just don't know
Why I feel so alone (when you're right there)
You lean your thighs to the right
I look off to the left
You say that you're too tired to fight
And you need your rest
Where was that mentality an hour ago?
When you were leaning across me
To talk to who knows
You get off the bus and storm the fuck off
I cant find you, so I storm the fuck off
My socks are sweaty underneath
I hang up our one last chance,
Baby, like a wreath
I just don't know
Where to go (from here)
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