You're the monster from my dreams You are the backache while I am asleep You're the toothache that I try my best To ignore till I fucking scream You are the slow car in front of me You are the 40 hours a week You're the portrait of the artist Forcing your art to embody me You're the silhouette of the main boss Before he takes his final form You're the forest, fire, water, Shadow temples combined in one shit-storm You're the Creepypasta coming to life In my paranoid young mind You're my ever conjugating, granulating Sand Man state of mind Every promise has been broke, our vows revoked You gave back my green coat Gave me all my sweatshirts, every trinket, Every single dumb love note If I could go back in time and fix all this I would smash the time machine I swear to God this is the last song I'll ever write about you and me

I go to the bridge When I don't have anywhere to go Staring at the pond All my hope is gone I listen to my heart It brings me back to the bridge It is where I belong It's where I wrote this song Watching over the bridge Don't you dare step on my bridge It is mine and mine alone And where it goes is half unknown Color coat all my fears It has been like this for years The fear of everything but loss Cause with nothing to lose I am just lost I go to the bridge When I refuse to go home Things are bad, I confess But I don't wanna make you stressed Pass me by in your car I wish on you like a shooting star Spend all your time at the bar While I worship from afar Watching over the bridge Keep each other safe from it Lay new boards, secure the truss But it can’t be done if we don't have trust I follow up with myself How was my day, how is my health? I fear everything but loss Cause with nothing to lose I am just lost I can never fall asleep Without me dying in my dreams There's water rushing below me And for a moment I feel free But then I snap out of my trance There is pavement underneath my Vans I'm standing on solid ground The bridge is closed, I turn around

You're every compliment I can think of You're every watercolor brush stroke You're every beam of light through my window And when the sun goes down I have to tell myself That it's okay to close my eyes Cause you'll still be here at sunrise I'd hate to be a prisoner in battle with my own I'd hate to be invisible to the ones searching at home I'd hate to be a catalyst for the enemy to score I'd hate to be a prisoner of war

I feel my ancestors deep inside my empty bones I feed off their hatred while justice usurps the throne I'd call it quits but I can never reach My human potential if I play it weak So I'm oh so sorry, but I have to keep My heart and my soul in tact Every life is worth a dime But mine's worth nothing if I wouldn't die For everyone who would die for mine So I love you too, but my neighbor is bleeding out In the world I'm marching with all, in my blood I'm alone A public cry of love equals casting a stone Now I never said I didn't love you all But you're following paths of hypocritical gods And your temple is nothing more than just a facade So I don't think you'll find me 'round there Every life is worth a dime But mine's worth nothing if I wouldn't die For everyone who would die for mine So I love you too, but my neighbor is bleeding out I'm sorry. I love you

I beat the train to the station No I don't need a vacation I know I said I did But I was just a kid No I don't know him, there is no relation The younger me could fight But he couldn't fuck I used to feel so stuck But then I tried my luck And now I can't stop moving my body, like so I fell in love with myself for the first time Even though I lied in the first line The train was way too fast And now I'm way too crass And now I don't recognize my own I fell in love with myself for the first time Even though I lied in the third line I am still a kid My life is up to bid And now I don't even recognize my own blood The younger me could love But he couldn't cry Why do you always lie? Why did you say goodbye? Where did you go when push came to shove? I tried to change the station While me and ***** were racing But all my buttons were broke And then he fucking choked Then all alone I heard the sirens blaring, like so I fell in love with myself for the first time Even though I lied in the ninth line ***** was way too fast And now i'm way too crass And now i don't recognize my own I fell in love with myself for the first time Even though I lied in the third line You never told me lies You never said goodbye And now I don't even recognize my own blood Becoming someone I don't like I fell in love with the nightlife I fell in love with myself And now I need self help Man, I need something more than verses and melodies and hooks! I fell in love with myself for the first time Now I'm getting burnt by the bright lights This happened way too fast And now I'm way too crass And now I don't recognize my own I fell in love with myself for the first time But I've told this lie for the last time I am living in hell I fucking hate myself And now I don't even recognize my own

Sit and stare Through dusty air Chicken crumbs on the coffee table and my chair The doors are locked It's 9 o'clock It takes way too long for me to kick off my socks Groceries still on the kitchen floor From the mall, Walmart and dollar store I haven't played guitar in months My calluses have softened up I'm in need Of better weed Just a little smoke in my lungs so I can breath Fall asleep Rinse repeat I’m a glutton, loser, punk ass wannabe Don't lay down till the sun is up Don't wake up till you've had enough Mental inbox full of spam Nothing left of who I am Pray one day I find my way Grind my teeth, pick at my face Deny that I'm out of place Drink, I chase, I drink, I chase

I want you so much I think I could cry But why does every song I write Start with "I"? I think I know why But I can't face it Should I blow it off, or Should I just embrace it? Tell me why you Roll your eyes Every time I turn my Amp into overdrive Am I that predictable or Are you just sick Of hearing me scream about All the same old shit? Come on over! Won't you come on over? Color me pink, oh no no Yeah, "I'm so weak" That melody overstayed its Welcome within a week We used to get all dressed up For those parades But now every time I see you You're wearing gray Come on over! Won't you come on over? This fucking movie Makes me sick 200 years of Internal conflict I look left and right but I cant find The protagonist Maybe there's no winner, and Uncle Sam was destined to eat shit

Sunlight Makes my cotton candy colored shirt look white My left shoes is squeaking so I'm leaning right Everyone around me is having a good time Mine's alright But I can't shake the feeling something isn’t right Felt too good for too long and I'm keeping score Maybe I can keep this up a little more Taking cover under the table Picking up the slack that you're not able Telling one another they're not stable Before I up and leave, I cut the cable The bridge is my only friend He walks me past every stick and stone He guides me to the end I'm free from every blinding window Deny, get angry I get depressed I bargain to see if we can save what's left I don't think I can do the one that comes next I don't think I can do the--

Pick and poke at my troubled mind You don't condone violence of any kind I'm hurting inside Talk about a stomach ache I don't think I can find the brakes in time I'm burning alive Shame is tainted in my brain Oh, dear God, for heaven sakes, I'm fine Fuck that life I rid, I don't give a shit I'm only 20 and I'm already losing it Where'd the notion That apathy is cool come from? I feel like I'm deaf, blind and dumb I can't be alone Juvenoia overload Or am I the one that should put down my phone? I don't think I Can go to town on these pigs Without a proper needle on the tables I rigged I injected my confidence I'm straight from the province Where the musically talented Are poisoned by salad and the overtones We don't need choruses We don't need adjectives We only need Madlibs And coordinated bathtub jigs I'm running the circus And I'm running the circuit And you don't deserve this But I'm trying to work this record playing machine Sorry doesn't make the things you do and say go away It don't change the fact that what you did was bad And it makes me sad and mad And I've had it up to here with all that Where will I go When you're all consumed by overtones? When everyone I know becomes a clone? How will I show You all that I threw that stone? I'll be damned if I die all alone

I just don't know If you told me that (or not) You tell so many stories I can't keep track of the days or dates You're singing to me on the bus ride home But I just wanna sleep You're sitting there in your comfy charter bus chair Blissfully unaware of my hundred yard stare I'm sorry I don't Remember that You told me so long ago (I must've forgot) I just don't know Why I feel so alone (when you're right there) You lean your thighs to the right I look off to the left You say that you're too tired to fight And you need your rest Where was that mentality an hour ago? When you were leaning across me To talk to who knows You get off the bus and storm the fuck off I cant find you, so I storm the fuck off My socks are sweaty underneath I hang up our one last chance, Baby, like a wreath I just don't know Where to go (from here)